Little sharing
It been so long time I didn't write something over here
and it was happened many things within this few days.
Its time to release my interest: record down through words.
I used to do this and it has been follow me 8 years until now still continuing.
Fortunately no ones doesn't know this page.
Quite long time nobody comes here, and I don't need those people most of time.
First is the academic.
Senior mood this year and I think this mood will be extend to coming next year,
I don't feel much learning within this 2 years in counseling,
I mean hands-on practise.
but actually I was learned a lot of knowledge in Counseling and Psychology field.
I need to keep improving myself.
I really love this course.
but when the footsteps of graduation getting closer
I'll getting more confusing to choose my next step in future.
I like to do a little short plan for everything because
it can save a little time in my future decision,
But I found myself usually not focus on it,
I just counted the day to day.
Too bad.
Second about my Cg friend:
Previously I asked my Cg leader to suggest me where can buy a bible with dual language version,
but he didn't reply me,
and I thought he is VERY busy on his work therefore I never asked him the second time
even meet him in Cg I was forgot about this thing.
Last Wednesday when I get the information that where can I find the bible with dual language version
from my Churchmate and I was already decide next Tuesday want to go there alone,
my Cg leader give me a "present" when the activity ended.
it is a orange wrapping paper, I try to touched it to guess what is that inside it
and I feel like a book, a thick book.
my churchmate told me: "maybe you're don't need to buy (bible)."
Yup, she is correct,
such a cute surprise given by my Cg members,
it is a bible with dual language version.
My Cg leader and other members they gave me such a good surprise.
I felt so touch at that moment they are caring me as well.
"Take it as the present that God give to you." said by my Cg leader.
Third is ... Ya me and him.
I wish I can try to adapt faster in this tough period,
I deem it is a transition,
but good or bad transition is according to each other though and actions.
I shouldn't hang breakup this word every time,
after calm down to think, I wondering why I so impulsive at that moment,
I tell myself if I cannot go through this period,
I'll experience the same thing in the next time,
it is normal usually happen in a relationship.
He said extrovert and introvert cannot being together,
WHO SAYS?? This logic is not 100% correct,
Don't you heard of magnet is opposite attracted?
I don't know what is our status now,
and I tell myself is it I only want a status between us
otherwise I won't be feel calm due to I don't want drag this period.
But we both need some time to go through it.
I think it takes quite long time.
I feel fail because I don't have a good topic with him,
I don't know why we cannot same as me and my friends have unfinished topic
can chit until end of the earth.
But the conversation between his friends and him are very nice and I can feel he is very happy and enjoy.
I don't know how to manage a relationship,
I still learning about to be flexible.
This morning I just made him angry,
even though he said I didn't but it must be some of anger inside.
Because he think he left his hoodie sweater in the college yesterday,
I just think I live near to college so I can giving a help though he extremely told me please don't help him.
I just think that sweater maybe is important to him,
I just wanna help him based on my angle.
I don't expected he'd give me an extremely big reaction and I can felt his anger in the message.
I think I am possible to killed if he is stand in front of me at the moment.
What went wrong? Am I did wrong?
Maybe. I was TOO KIND HEART, do everything unconditionally.
Its not unconditionally.
Although he was forgive me and told me please don't do this next time,
but I tell myself, if he still clumsy next time, I won't do this for him,
I won't do it not because scared of his angry but due to I won't so silly do this for this guy who didn't treasure what I did even though he felt bad.
I feel numb for his "feel bad"
I never blame him he's late during my birthday.
But he did this to me and I really get shocked and grievances,
but I still keep apologize to him, I don't know why I am so stubborn and stupid.
But thank you had been cool down.
Well, this is also a interaction with people,
accept people's different personality to move forward in the relationship.
Keep on moving.!
Forth is about the Christmas,
Look forward the Christmas day, and I just wish everything go on smoothly on that beautiful day.
But I headache on my cousin come visit KL on that day and I don't think I can drawing out my time to them.
Done. End of there.
Gonna going bed now for a nap.
Tomorrow is his birthday, Happy birthday.
and it was happened many things within this few days.
Its time to release my interest: record down through words.
I used to do this and it has been follow me 8 years until now still continuing.
Fortunately no ones doesn't know this page.
Quite long time nobody comes here, and I don't need those people most of time.
First is the academic.
Senior mood this year and I think this mood will be extend to coming next year,
I don't feel much learning within this 2 years in counseling,
I mean hands-on practise.
but actually I was learned a lot of knowledge in Counseling and Psychology field.
I need to keep improving myself.
I really love this course.
but when the footsteps of graduation getting closer
I'll getting more confusing to choose my next step in future.
I like to do a little short plan for everything because
it can save a little time in my future decision,
But I found myself usually not focus on it,
I just counted the day to day.
Too bad.
Second about my Cg friend:
Previously I asked my Cg leader to suggest me where can buy a bible with dual language version,
but he didn't reply me,
and I thought he is VERY busy on his work therefore I never asked him the second time
even meet him in Cg I was forgot about this thing.
Last Wednesday when I get the information that where can I find the bible with dual language version
from my Churchmate and I was already decide next Tuesday want to go there alone,
my Cg leader give me a "present" when the activity ended.
it is a orange wrapping paper, I try to touched it to guess what is that inside it
and I feel like a book, a thick book.
my churchmate told me: "maybe you're don't need to buy (bible)."
Yup, she is correct,
such a cute surprise given by my Cg members,
it is a bible with dual language version.
My Cg leader and other members they gave me such a good surprise.
I felt so touch at that moment they are caring me as well.
"Take it as the present that God give to you." said by my Cg leader.
Third is ... Ya me and him.
I wish I can try to adapt faster in this tough period,
I deem it is a transition,
but good or bad transition is according to each other though and actions.
I shouldn't hang breakup this word every time,
after calm down to think, I wondering why I so impulsive at that moment,
I tell myself if I cannot go through this period,
I'll experience the same thing in the next time,
it is normal usually happen in a relationship.
He said extrovert and introvert cannot being together,
WHO SAYS?? This logic is not 100% correct,
Don't you heard of magnet is opposite attracted?
I don't know what is our status now,
and I tell myself is it I only want a status between us
otherwise I won't be feel calm due to I don't want drag this period.
But we both need some time to go through it.
I think it takes quite long time.
I feel fail because I don't have a good topic with him,
I don't know why we cannot same as me and my friends have unfinished topic
can chit until end of the earth.
But the conversation between his friends and him are very nice and I can feel he is very happy and enjoy.
I don't know how to manage a relationship,
I still learning about to be flexible.
This morning I just made him angry,
even though he said I didn't but it must be some of anger inside.
Because he think he left his hoodie sweater in the college yesterday,
I just think I live near to college so I can giving a help though he extremely told me please don't help him.
I just think that sweater maybe is important to him,
I just wanna help him based on my angle.
I don't expected he'd give me an extremely big reaction and I can felt his anger in the message.
I think I am possible to killed if he is stand in front of me at the moment.
What went wrong? Am I did wrong?
Maybe. I was TOO KIND HEART, do everything unconditionally.
Its not unconditionally.
Although he was forgive me and told me please don't do this next time,
but I tell myself, if he still clumsy next time, I won't do this for him,
I won't do it not because scared of his angry but due to I won't so silly do this for this guy who didn't treasure what I did even though he felt bad.
I feel numb for his "feel bad"
I never blame him he's late during my birthday.
But he did this to me and I really get shocked and grievances,
but I still keep apologize to him, I don't know why I am so stubborn and stupid.
But thank you had been cool down.
Well, this is also a interaction with people,
accept people's different personality to move forward in the relationship.
Keep on moving.!
Forth is about the Christmas,
Look forward the Christmas day, and I just wish everything go on smoothly on that beautiful day.
But I headache on my cousin come visit KL on that day and I don't think I can drawing out my time to them.
Done. End of there.
Gonna going bed now for a nap.
Tomorrow is his birthday, Happy birthday.
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