Only For You

I want to type out in Chinese,
but I hope someone can see this and read this someday in the future,
if we're not in together in the future.

I glad to met you as a rational person,
thanks for we both are do not like quarrel
therefore we can come out a DISCUSSION not a WAR.

I think both of us already know that
we are in trouble and we thinking about it frequently.
Thanks we have been spoke out and found the existing problem.

After the discussion,
I think I have a little bit stronger,
you ease my heart and mind, give me more confidence to confront future challenges.

You said 
I am caring, very caring
I need to "prepare".
We both know maybe we are not suitable to each other.
Maybe I can find another one who is better than you.
We are too fast in together.
you are so in busy and your attitude have problem.
you are not a good person to be a boyfriend to me.
Sometimes feels like want to go back single life.
and so on that I can't remember.

I know, for me this is very hurt even though I pretend like very stronger.
I still cry in the phone, it is hurt, but relieved,
at least we found the answers of the problems.

I said
I just want to good for you not others
I can wait for you
I accept all of you because I like you, I love you.
and so on that I cannot remember, I hope just let it be, don't recall it again.

but I am very grateful.
You teach me a lot of things,
you guide me to say hi to the God,
I like the way you thinking, it is very special and unique,
My English became better and better also because of you.
I like your smile, your thoughtful, your concern, you hug, your kiss,
I still can remember the first movie that we watched,
that was my first time went movie with a guy but also is my boyfriend,
this is what I never think about it before.
We call each other movie mate, I am so touch you still remember this term.

But we still need to come back to the fact,
I need to learn to accept the reality even though I really really want to escape.

We came out a conclusion is pending.
I know myself won't lost the feeling to you,
but maybe you will.
So maybe one day we will separate,
but we promise each other we will tell others if others asking or mention.

Although we are separate but we have a happy memories with each other and that is
keep in each other heart permanently.


So now, we are wait and see.
You need to concentrate on your study, and me too.

We work hard together. Fighting.

If we reach that day need to separate,
maybe you already lost the feeling to me,
But I will tell you, I still loving you.



I insist don't want to separate
even though I know love relationship this kind of thing cannot be force with.