Safe & Sound

I'm afraid of dark, alone and empty greet me after I go back the empty shell by next week.
I just can count the stars on the dark sky,
but unable to count how much of fear I have.

some people say Im rationality,
but I says myself just strained.

I desired going to counseling
But I think I'll missed many good chance
if I can't admit I have problem,
you think I'm just suffer from "shadow symptom" ?
hmm, I dont think so.  : 1

it is fear and terrifying when walked alone in the dark.
My friend told me:
"please, text any friends who are nearby you, or me when you start to go back."
"better do nothing."

"and you can text to your boyfriend. Tell him what are you doing."

That was so strange and wonderful,
I'm starting forget how to independence after met him,
I want to rely him sometime O_o
He deserves let me relying.
Would he willing to let me contact with him during I go back from work?
yea, I think so, He's my bf, why not?
You do, right? :)

and Yes, miss him very much.
when will be our next meet?
I want to do many things with you, together.

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Pray for Tinny's brother.
I'm not maintained a negative thought,
Muscular Dystrophy，
but I really think that her brother can't remain until 18 years old.
already 7 days dint eat anything,
just vomit whatever he ate.
It is very tired and suffering..

and exhausted.

After came back from Broga,
I know I'm not expert in physical and sport,
always reckless and stupid get injury,
I dont understand how they did it,
and envy all of them,

but in another aspect, like this,
I believe and have confidence, I can perform well.

LOVING IS CARING,
SHARING IS CARING.

LOVE IS THE BEST THING IN THE WORLD.

I was expect myself masculine,
but seems like fail.
okay, I be doomed to be a soft and weak person.
Hey, I dont want, never ever being a person like this.
I stay strong also!

Pray for her brother,
hope her family prepare to accept the reality,
and give all their love when her brother still stay beside them.
I know it is very painful,
but hope my friend can hold it.
as a friend, we must support and encourage her to be strong..

She didnt call me back yesterday,
I was intend to visit her brother at hospital today,
but forget it,
maybe it is better I dont go or else hear more painful story and giving trouble to them.

Struggling with devil.

Beside this, thanks God my friend's parents getting well,
they still need to stay in the hospital for observation,
but very happy see that her parents win the battle of life.

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Lastly again,
I love you, I miss you.

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Pray for myself,
I'll be safe and sound in this coming working 2 weeks,
everybody support me, encourage me, love me, care of me, look after me,
give power to me, teach me, give me all the happy memories, caring me.

everyone are not ignore me when I text to them,
include my friends, my lover.
I know my family wont do that. : )

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